The evening remained intact, the moon and the stars were leading the path. The wind brought the scent of the night, making you believe that anything impossible could happen. The small bricks on the walls had an orangish tone that gave the impression of being in another time. The table was in a private room apart from the rest. When the first bottle of wine was about to be emptied some steps were heard and the gazes turned to follow where the sound came from. Deep black eyes opened languidly. The conversation among the group went on as usual till the man started playing the shiny red accordion. The way it was being played caught one person’s attention and he made a sudden move turning his whole body almost completely towards the man and remained in silence until the songs ended, each one made him feel as if he were blood splashing everywhere when being released from an artery.
I travel in time. I see the movie over and over, those tears I could not catch. Everything becomes intangible like a dream. Yet I feel all since the beginning of it. I see those deep dark eyes showing me an unknown path. I see the way you walk, how your muscles tense while moving until I lose your silhouette on the horizon. On the next sunrise, I look for that thick hair of yours, lips like stones and that soothing voice pronouncing your name when my body gets closer to yours and dears to articulate a demand, your name. Our essence became a birthmark that we would never get rid of.
I know that gaze, lost in the beginning, then it dears to look at my eyes and penetrates and then it dissolves again. Intensity, passion, mystery. Things around are a partial text of what it is a whole and I would like to discover; like separating petals in a flower. What’s underneath that gorgeous mask? I wonder how you would love, if you have… If you have been loved. I would like to know your failures, your success and fears, what makes you feel alive, sad, angry; what your purpose in life is. I do not know if I would talk to you, if you would talk to me. I just know that I only have this moment that I can always remember.
All I write is a temporary passenger. There is a different one all the time. They look at me, analyze me and leave afterwards. I enjoy that temporality, brief but intense.
Faces moving here and there in circles, hugging each other feeling young again. The quiet but constant steps, the deep gazes and my heart dancing at an unknown rhythm. The uncertainty destroys hammering the monotony, me, I exist without time.
The coffee was black as usual, almost no sugar. This time the music did not match with the idea I had in mind about what I thought it should have been played. A blurry image, chattering, dark wavy hair in front of me, lips being licked looking for moisture. “You are a mess,” I thought. We could have focused on our typical conversations, but your mouth was in denial and the words died in your lips. My attempts of changing the topic failed. It was too late to stay up all night. “I will leave soon, you don’t have to worry,” I mumbled. My eyes were burning, although that was not really important to me. I wanted the moment to last.
I find you in the vast forest. A fallen branch lights the other ones; I collect them one by one and they paint my skin, eyes, breast and soul golden. You are in a sanctuary vibrating with your cords made of gold. The fairies dance around you. Hypnotized, I burn.
Death doesn’t exist for the immortals; they dance around the fire and burn with it; live in lightning, in the meteors, in the stars as they explode. They’re pious and sing to us, tearing us apart; they take us gently by the hands and throw us to the black hole. I know just a few; I meet them little by little on my path, but when I have them face to face, I burn in their flame. I carry their balm in my soul. What would we do without the immortals?